Personally, I have learned more, seen more and done more out of brokenness than out of my talent, experience or skill. During times of weakness, it seems God makes Himself more real to me. When you are a leader–fill in the blank like being a dad, a pastor, a music director, a worship leader–you never quite measure up to the task. At least, that is what I think of myself when I am broken. This includes the all-important leadership of self.
One example was when I was able to lose over 50 pounds in 2006 and keep most of it off–until moving and gaining a bit of it back recently. I had the threat of cancer, and the impending surgery and my failing thyroid apparently made this all that much harder emotionally as well as physically. With the help of my wife, friends, and prayer, I realized that I really could not accomplish this with my own resources. Results began to be visible and real.
It takes a huge effort to change. Leadership at its best effects change in yourself and in others. When I am humble enough to see my weaknesses and lack of resources without God’s intervention I am ready to lead. I can listen better, speak better and think more clearly. My skills, talents and experiences actually come into focus.
God’s strength indeed manifests when I am weak. (2 Corinthians 12:9) Only then can I lead. So, when the temptation to boast about my accomplishments rears its head, the game plan is to see that accomplishments of worth originate from God’s showing up in my ineptitude.
Does this make sense in your experience? Do you see God as more real when you are “with it” or when you are weak?