Uncertainty Part 3: The wait…

QuestionsIf you have not read the last two posts, I have learned these past few weeks that I have some growths in my thyroid.  I am learning a new side of making decisions.  Sometimes you have to make decisions that are life-altering without having as much information as you would hope to have or with very little guarantee.  The truth is that nothing but God’s grace is guaranteed this side of heaven, or perhaps the faith in God’s grace.

In the doctor’s office this week I was presented with uncertainty.  I had hoped, for some reason, to hear great news or bad news.  If I had a positive test for cancer, it would be clear what the next steps would be and if I was negative, the same.  However, even though I had a negative scan, there is uncertainty to my prognosis.  For instance, the uptake test I mentioned in the last post produced both hot and cold.  Also, my gland is functional.  And, even a negative test on a biopsy would not enlighten the my doctor any further.

I was presented a choice.  Wait for 3-4 months and then have a sonogram.  This new sonogram would be compared with the previous to determine growth or not in the nodules.  If no growth in the nodules are found, then I might go for check ups a couple times a year.  The other choice was to aggressively take action and remove the Thyroid or possibly just a portion of it.  The doc presented it to me that it was reasonable enough to have surgery and that if I would "lose sleep" over having a lump in my neck that I should just go ahead with the surgery.

Would I lose sleep?  Well, I made the decision to find out if I would lose sleep over this (it is 12:58 AM right now) and wait.  I have peace about this, knowing that every day is a gift, anyway.  And, my hope is to find out more information and get another opinion.  However, I will not lose sleep over this.  (Even though it is 12:58 AM, my wife and I just watched a DVD).

So, the waiting begins and in a some weeks ahead I will post further.  For now, please pray.  I thank you so much for the prayers and nice emails and comments.

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Rich Kirkpatrick

Rich Kirkpatrick

Writer, Speaker, and Musician. Rich Kirkpatrick was recently rated #13 of the “Top 75 Religion Bloggers” by Newsmax.com, having also received recognition by Worship Leader Magazine as “Editor’s Choice” for the “Best of the Best” of blogs in 2011, 2014, 2015 and 2016.

40 comments

  1. Sounds like you made the best decision with the information that you had. For whatever it’s worth, I would have probably taken the wait-and-see approach also. I could also see myself as being hypervigilant about any changes I felt, one way or another.
    In any case, the prayers continue to go up. Thanks for opening this part of your life to us so that we can pray!

  2. Sounds like you made the best decision with the information that you had. For whatever it’s worth, I would have probably taken the wait-and-see approach also. I could also see myself as being hypervigilant about any changes I felt, one way or another.
    In any case, the prayers continue to go up. Thanks for opening this part of your life to us so that we can pray!

  3. Sounds like you made the best decision with the information that you had. For whatever it’s worth, I would have probably taken the wait-and-see approach also. I could also see myself as being hypervigilant about any changes I felt, one way or another.
    In any case, the prayers continue to go up. Thanks for opening this part of your life to us so that we can pray!

  4. Sounds like you made the best decision with the information that you had. For whatever it’s worth, I would have probably taken the wait-and-see approach also. I could also see myself as being hypervigilant about any changes I felt, one way or another.
    In any case, the prayers continue to go up. Thanks for opening this part of your life to us so that we can pray!

  5. Losing the thyroid might not be that big of a deal. My wife has an underactive thyroid and has to take medication to compensate. She goes in about every six months for blood tests and to have the medication adjusted. I’m sure if you had it removed it’d be something similar.
    It is a good thing that it’s not an awful prognosis at this point, though. You don’t want to mess around with cancer! Whatever you decide to do, I’m sure you’ll do it with the peace that only God can give you.

  6. Losing the thyroid might not be that big of a deal. My wife has an underactive thyroid and has to take medication to compensate. She goes in about every six months for blood tests and to have the medication adjusted. I’m sure if you had it removed it’d be something similar.
    It is a good thing that it’s not an awful prognosis at this point, though. You don’t want to mess around with cancer! Whatever you decide to do, I’m sure you’ll do it with the peace that only God can give you.

  7. Losing the thyroid might not be that big of a deal. My wife has an underactive thyroid and has to take medication to compensate. She goes in about every six months for blood tests and to have the medication adjusted. I’m sure if you had it removed it’d be something similar.
    It is a good thing that it’s not an awful prognosis at this point, though. You don’t want to mess around with cancer! Whatever you decide to do, I’m sure you’ll do it with the peace that only God can give you.

  8. Losing the thyroid might not be that big of a deal. My wife has an underactive thyroid and has to take medication to compensate. She goes in about every six months for blood tests and to have the medication adjusted. I’m sure if you had it removed it’d be something similar.
    It is a good thing that it’s not an awful prognosis at this point, though. You don’t want to mess around with cancer! Whatever you decide to do, I’m sure you’ll do it with the peace that only God can give you.

  9. Thanks Derek.
    My thyroid works normally, which is part of the weird thing here and it is the nodules being “vague” that concern the doctors. They cannot rule out the bad stuff (his words). So, simply getting the thyroid removed is a reasonable option presented to me. They can’t just remove the growths, for some reason. Only the whole thing. So, in about 3-4 months, we will see. Really, life is short, and cancer or a bad disease is possible for any of us and probable if we get to live long enough. God is showing me that uncertainty about these things and others does not mean peace of mind has to be gone! But, as I said, I am learning. Thanks again for sharing your comment.

  10. Thanks Derek.
    My thyroid works normally, which is part of the weird thing here and it is the nodules being “vague” that concern the doctors. They cannot rule out the bad stuff (his words). So, simply getting the thyroid removed is a reasonable option presented to me. They can’t just remove the growths, for some reason. Only the whole thing. So, in about 3-4 months, we will see. Really, life is short, and cancer or a bad disease is possible for any of us and probable if we get to live long enough. God is showing me that uncertainty about these things and others does not mean peace of mind has to be gone! But, as I said, I am learning. Thanks again for sharing your comment.

  11. Thanks Derek.
    My thyroid works normally, which is part of the weird thing here and it is the nodules being “vague” that concern the doctors. They cannot rule out the bad stuff (his words). So, simply getting the thyroid removed is a reasonable option presented to me. They can’t just remove the growths, for some reason. Only the whole thing. So, in about 3-4 months, we will see. Really, life is short, and cancer or a bad disease is possible for any of us and probable if we get to live long enough. God is showing me that uncertainty about these things and others does not mean peace of mind has to be gone! But, as I said, I am learning. Thanks again for sharing your comment.

  12. Thanks Derek.
    My thyroid works normally, which is part of the weird thing here and it is the nodules being “vague” that concern the doctors. They cannot rule out the bad stuff (his words). So, simply getting the thyroid removed is a reasonable option presented to me. They can’t just remove the growths, for some reason. Only the whole thing. So, in about 3-4 months, we will see. Really, life is short, and cancer or a bad disease is possible for any of us and probable if we get to live long enough. God is showing me that uncertainty about these things and others does not mean peace of mind has to be gone! But, as I said, I am learning. Thanks again for sharing your comment.

  13. Rich,
    Amy and I will be praying for you. I had another friend go through something similar with their thyroid and it wasn’t fun watching it happen. I hope that God heals you, but know that His will is in action and that you are strong in your faith in Him and will come out of this stronger. I love you Rich, you’re an amazing man and your friendship has helped me grow immensly.

  14. Rich,
    Amy and I will be praying for you. I had another friend go through something similar with their thyroid and it wasn’t fun watching it happen. I hope that God heals you, but know that His will is in action and that you are strong in your faith in Him and will come out of this stronger. I love you Rich, you’re an amazing man and your friendship has helped me grow immensly.

  15. Rich,
    Amy and I will be praying for you. I had another friend go through something similar with their thyroid and it wasn’t fun watching it happen. I hope that God heals you, but know that His will is in action and that you are strong in your faith in Him and will come out of this stronger. I love you Rich, you’re an amazing man and your friendship has helped me grow immensly.

  16. Rich,
    Amy and I will be praying for you. I had another friend go through something similar with their thyroid and it wasn’t fun watching it happen. I hope that God heals you, but know that His will is in action and that you are strong in your faith in Him and will come out of this stronger. I love you Rich, you’re an amazing man and your friendship has helped me grow immensly.

  17. I’m prayin’ for you bro — It’s awesome to hear that your faith in Him is getting stronger moment by moment as you wait on Him! Much grace and peace!

  18. I’m prayin’ for you bro — It’s awesome to hear that your faith in Him is getting stronger moment by moment as you wait on Him! Much grace and peace!

  19. I’m prayin’ for you bro — It’s awesome to hear that your faith in Him is getting stronger moment by moment as you wait on Him! Much grace and peace!

  20. I’m prayin’ for you bro — It’s awesome to hear that your faith in Him is getting stronger moment by moment as you wait on Him! Much grace and peace!

  21. Hi Rich,This is Ben Abu Saada’s mom in Gaza. I read Ben’s blog about your tests. I will keep you in my prayers. We have a Mighty Miracle Working God!!!! I am glad you are giving your decision time. He is the God of “wait and see”. Watch Him work miracles for you!
    In His steps,
    Karen Abu Saada

  22. Hi Rich,This is Ben Abu Saada’s mom in Gaza. I read Ben’s blog about your tests. I will keep you in my prayers. We have a Mighty Miracle Working God!!!! I am glad you are giving your decision time. He is the God of “wait and see”. Watch Him work miracles for you!
    In His steps,
    Karen Abu Saada

  23. Hi Rich,This is Ben Abu Saada’s mom in Gaza. I read Ben’s blog about your tests. I will keep you in my prayers. We have a Mighty Miracle Working God!!!! I am glad you are giving your decision time. He is the God of “wait and see”. Watch Him work miracles for you!
    In His steps,
    Karen Abu Saada

  24. Hi Rich,This is Ben Abu Saada’s mom in Gaza. I read Ben’s blog about your tests. I will keep you in my prayers. We have a Mighty Miracle Working God!!!! I am glad you are giving your decision time. He is the God of “wait and see”. Watch Him work miracles for you!
    In His steps,
    Karen Abu Saada

  25. Hey Rich..
    We are praying for you, our whole family is. And we hope that you get better…Its hard going through times of uncertainty, and especially when its physical…but times like these are the ones where we grow in our faith, just keep your trust in our Father’s plan… hang in there buddyJ
    Also we appreciate everything you contribute to Neighborhood Church…we three look up to you and appreciate your encouragement, God’s Blessing to you and your family..
    Love from Blameless Child, and the whole Bashor family..

  26. Hey Rich..
    We are praying for you, our whole family is. And we hope that you get better…Its hard going through times of uncertainty, and especially when its physical…but times like these are the ones where we grow in our faith, just keep your trust in our Father’s plan… hang in there buddyJ
    Also we appreciate everything you contribute to Neighborhood Church…we three look up to you and appreciate your encouragement, God’s Blessing to you and your family..
    Love from Blameless Child, and the whole Bashor family..

  27. Hey Rich..
    We are praying for you, our whole family is. And we hope that you get better…Its hard going through times of uncertainty, and especially when its physical…but times like these are the ones where we grow in our faith, just keep your trust in our Father’s plan… hang in there buddyJ
    Also we appreciate everything you contribute to Neighborhood Church…we three look up to you and appreciate your encouragement, God’s Blessing to you and your family..
    Love from Blameless Child, and the whole Bashor family..

  28. Hey Rich..
    We are praying for you, our whole family is. And we hope that you get better…Its hard going through times of uncertainty, and especially when its physical…but times like these are the ones where we grow in our faith, just keep your trust in our Father’s plan… hang in there buddyJ
    Also we appreciate everything you contribute to Neighborhood Church…we three look up to you and appreciate your encouragement, God’s Blessing to you and your family..
    Love from Blameless Child, and the whole Bashor family..

  29. dude, if you’ve got ben’s momma (abu saada) praying for you, i doubt you could have anything go wrong.
    i’m a little late to let you know, but i’m in with the praying for you thing. i went thru some similar stuff with my wife a few years back – got very very concerned about a lump in her neck – i got word of it when i landed in africa for a two-week trip. i was very -ok, i’ll say it, worried- about it.

    to make a long story not so long, the second morning of the trip i left my wedding ring at the lodge we were staying at in the middle of zimbabwe – a few hours down the road i realized it and so we turned around and went back. i prayed and prayed and all of it tied together in my heart – the trouble vicki was having and the loss of my ring. i was just messed up.

    well, when we rounded the corner of the lodge – way up in the middle of nowhere – we were met by a young man standing there holding my ring in his palm stretched out to me. i was at this point obviously relieved, but when i asked him his name, God touched me.

    “My name is Trust.”

    God spoke to me clearly at that moment that He could be trusted to take care of the things that matter to me.

    I hope that encourages you like it did me. I will definitely pray for you and your family – that God will speak to you clearly in His way – speaking directly to the point of your need.

  30. dude, if you’ve got ben’s momma (abu saada) praying for you, i doubt you could have anything go wrong.
    i’m a little late to let you know, but i’m in with the praying for you thing. i went thru some similar stuff with my wife a few years back – got very very concerned about a lump in her neck – i got word of it when i landed in africa for a two-week trip. i was very -ok, i’ll say it, worried- about it.

    to make a long story not so long, the second morning of the trip i left my wedding ring at the lodge we were staying at in the middle of zimbabwe – a few hours down the road i realized it and so we turned around and went back. i prayed and prayed and all of it tied together in my heart – the trouble vicki was having and the loss of my ring. i was just messed up.

    well, when we rounded the corner of the lodge – way up in the middle of nowhere – we were met by a young man standing there holding my ring in his palm stretched out to me. i was at this point obviously relieved, but when i asked him his name, God touched me.

    “My name is Trust.”

    God spoke to me clearly at that moment that He could be trusted to take care of the things that matter to me.

    I hope that encourages you like it did me. I will definitely pray for you and your family – that God will speak to you clearly in His way – speaking directly to the point of your need.

  31. dude, if you’ve got ben’s momma (abu saada) praying for you, i doubt you could have anything go wrong.
    i’m a little late to let you know, but i’m in with the praying for you thing. i went thru some similar stuff with my wife a few years back – got very very concerned about a lump in her neck – i got word of it when i landed in africa for a two-week trip. i was very -ok, i’ll say it, worried- about it.

    to make a long story not so long, the second morning of the trip i left my wedding ring at the lodge we were staying at in the middle of zimbabwe – a few hours down the road i realized it and so we turned around and went back. i prayed and prayed and all of it tied together in my heart – the trouble vicki was having and the loss of my ring. i was just messed up.

    well, when we rounded the corner of the lodge – way up in the middle of nowhere – we were met by a young man standing there holding my ring in his palm stretched out to me. i was at this point obviously relieved, but when i asked him his name, God touched me.

    “My name is Trust.”

    God spoke to me clearly at that moment that He could be trusted to take care of the things that matter to me.

    I hope that encourages you like it did me. I will definitely pray for you and your family – that God will speak to you clearly in His way – speaking directly to the point of your need.

  32. dude, if you’ve got ben’s momma (abu saada) praying for you, i doubt you could have anything go wrong.
    i’m a little late to let you know, but i’m in with the praying for you thing. i went thru some similar stuff with my wife a few years back – got very very concerned about a lump in her neck – i got word of it when i landed in africa for a two-week trip. i was very -ok, i’ll say it, worried- about it.

    to make a long story not so long, the second morning of the trip i left my wedding ring at the lodge we were staying at in the middle of zimbabwe – a few hours down the road i realized it and so we turned around and went back. i prayed and prayed and all of it tied together in my heart – the trouble vicki was having and the loss of my ring. i was just messed up.

    well, when we rounded the corner of the lodge – way up in the middle of nowhere – we were met by a young man standing there holding my ring in his palm stretched out to me. i was at this point obviously relieved, but when i asked him his name, God touched me.

    “My name is Trust.”

    God spoke to me clearly at that moment that He could be trusted to take care of the things that matter to me.

    I hope that encourages you like it did me. I will definitely pray for you and your family – that God will speak to you clearly in His way – speaking directly to the point of your need.

  33. Dan…wow! Your note is certainly an encouragement to me. I just read it to my wife. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. Little me is so humbled to have Mrs. Abu Asaada, family & friends and you pray for me.
    Thanks to all of you! Like Mrs. Abu Asaada said, we have a miracle working God.

  34. Dan…wow! Your note is certainly an encouragement to me. I just read it to my wife. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. Little me is so humbled to have Mrs. Abu Asaada, family & friends and you pray for me.
    Thanks to all of you! Like Mrs. Abu Asaada said, we have a miracle working God.

  35. Dan…wow! Your note is certainly an encouragement to me. I just read it to my wife. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. Little me is so humbled to have Mrs. Abu Asaada, family & friends and you pray for me.
    Thanks to all of you! Like Mrs. Abu Asaada said, we have a miracle working God.

  36. Dan…wow! Your note is certainly an encouragement to me. I just read it to my wife. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. Little me is so humbled to have Mrs. Abu Asaada, family & friends and you pray for me.
    Thanks to all of you! Like Mrs. Abu Asaada said, we have a miracle working God.

  37. Hi, Rich. Ben Abu Saada’s wife mentioned you on her blog (I’m one of her subscribers), and I wanted to let you know you’re in my prayers. Grace and peace to you!

  38. Hi, Rich. Ben Abu Saada’s wife mentioned you on her blog (I’m one of her subscribers), and I wanted to let you know you’re in my prayers. Grace and peace to you!

  39. Hi, Rich. Ben Abu Saada’s wife mentioned you on her blog (I’m one of her subscribers), and I wanted to let you know you’re in my prayers. Grace and peace to you!

  40. Hi, Rich. Ben Abu Saada’s wife mentioned you on her blog (I’m one of her subscribers), and I wanted to let you know you’re in my prayers. Grace and peace to you!

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